Friends

So as my proper first blog post I´ve decided to talk about friends. For two reasons; because friends are very important in our life and because there´s something happening to me right now (yep, today, November 15th) that has to do with friends.

So first of all, what are friends? Well for me, a friend is like a sister, someone you hang out with, someone you can trust, someone you enjoy being with, someone you can talk to about anything, even your secrets, someone you care about and most important, someone you love!

Well the reason I´m writing this blog is to tell you about my best friend, I am not gonna say her name but I will put her a nickname. Let´s call her the "I´m okay" girl. Now the reason I´m going to be calling her that is because every time I ask her "how are you?" she´ll answer "I´m okay" like thats all she answers to that question seriously.

Well, so basically I met her about a year ago. She came to school towards the end of the year like in March or somewhere around that time. I first noticed her when I was outside my English class, she had already been to school the day before, for the last lesson, and that´s why I hadn't seen her before. So anyways, I just arrived to school that day and walked to my English class and she was just standing there. When I first got there I was like "oh, look, there´s someone new in school, that´s cool!" and it was so funny cause, I don't know wether it was the night before or the week before, but I had been wishing so badly for someone new to join the school. And you probably are now thinking "yeah sure, such a coincidence, huh?" well the reason I wanted a new person (preferably a girl) in my school is because, okay, I´ll be honest, well I wasn´t really getting along with everyone. So I am a short person (there you go, a new fact about me) and lets say I looked like my friends baby next to them. They´re all so tall! And of course that doesn't mean I don't like them, of course I do, I love them! But the problem was I just felt like I didn´t blend in, like a felt I was left out. What I mean is like they never invited me to the mall, or whenever I invited them they "already had plans" so that´s why I wanted a new friend.

And this is what I actually thought: "okay so I want a friend, that first of all would like to become my best friend and is nice. Then I want a friend who hopefully is the same height as me aka short, and also someone that ( I know this might sound mean) is pretty, this doesn't mean I don't like ugly people, actually, I don't think anyones ugly I think everyones beautiful. But anyways, this is how I planned my best friend to look like. Short, blonde and with blu eyes, she has to be nice and be trustworthy."
I also did want her to be MY own best friend. Not that I don't like group of friends, its just I knew that if I made a "squad" It won't be "squad goals" I knew someone (probably me) would end up left out. So thats why I wanted my own friend.

So, okay, when I first saw her, I was like "oh look she looks nice" So this is what she looks like; she's short, only about 5-7cm taller than me, she´s blonde and has grey-ish, greenish eyes. And you can't say she's not pretty, she's okay, but of course thats not what mattered to me. So during the lesson I spent the whole time smiling at her and she smiling back, you know what I mean right, that´s what girls do to get along with people, so basically I was trying to tell her that I´m nice and I want to be friends with her.

So that day, right before the lesson was over I got the girl that sat next to her (she´s a very shy person and she doesn't speak at all, but I knew that if I´d ask her something she would do it, because I guess     I´m kinda nice to her) so I asked her to ask the new girl aka "I´m okay" if she would like to come with me and my other friends to eat lunch with us. And I asked that girl to ask her for two reasons. firstly because I was kinda shy to ask her and because I wasn't close to her at all so I rushed to that girl to ask her if she could ask her and she said yeah so it was all cool beans.

So after the girl had asked her (okay, you know what, even though that girl isn't gonna appear much in my blogs because i´m not really friends with her, I´m still gone give her a nickname, cause why not? So her nickname will be "donald duck" and the reason for these is because she literally sounds like donald duck.) Anyways so after "donald duck" had asked her, she said yes so I was yay omg!

So she came to lunch with us and we talked and I asked her if she liked One Direction and she said they're okay (yes I absolutely love One Direction (another fact from me)) so we started to become friends. It was my birthday party a month later so I decided to invite her and we had lots of fun it was really cool hanging out with her.

But the real problem started just before the school year ended, I think this is why it happened, so basically I won some movie tickets on the radio ( I win lots of stuff but never actually get the prize, anyways its a long story, so if you want a blog post on that just comment it below x) anyways so I invited her over and when we where gonna leave my mum checked everything and it turned out the movie was 18+ (another fact about me) so we couldn't go :( so I think she got a bit sad cause she thought she was gonna go to the movies so she ended up staying for a sleepover and the next day she didn't talk to me so we didn't talk for each other for the whole summer, even though one day we saw each other in the pool which was awkward cause my sister was like "omg theres your bestie why don't you talk to each other" she's an annoying little sister.

So when we came back to school we kinda said sorry and we where friends again!

But thats not all! This last week she has been horrible. So I forgot to tell you this but theres this girl who's kind of 'stealing' her from me so they're like talking about stuff I don't know which I think is to make me jealous. So anyways she came back from some holidays she went during school and I was like" How was it, did you have fun?!" Well, guess what she said... "It was 'okay'". Ugh.
Anyways so from that day I was like I'm not dealing with this anymore cause she never said hi to me she just went with this other girl who I'm gonna call 'squirrel' cause she looks like a squirrel. So I just stopped talking to her to see if she'd talk to me to ask if I was okay, but surprise surprise, she didn't.
So we haven't been talking to each other until my other friend told me that she told her that she wanted to 'take a break' from me. WHAT KINDA FRIEND DOES THAT?! friends don't take breaks from each other, so anyways we got into a fight on snapchat and this week she's been acting so weird in school like she's actually being nice to me and asking me about my weekend, which shocked me because she never does that.

So I don't know what to do, I mean she's been horrible to me so does this mean she wants to be friends again, and if she does would you guys be friends with her again if you where me?
And have you guys been in a situation like or similar to this? if you have I'd love to hear from you in the comments!

P.s Sorry for the long post, love you all x

Gir online online, now going offline xx